Jason Teo

Dressing

classy,talking and acting that way doesn’t make one gain anything on the inside.

In the end you just become a pretentious idiot.

Class and manners serve to help us have better control our emotions and tempers as well and behave appropriately.That i believe is the true goal.

Need to break

out of this thought cycle of 1st,2nd,3rd completely and focus on living,on happiness.

Struggle

isn’t as bad as it is made out to be

A mundane life is worse.

Determination

is even more important than talent and that is something you have alot of.

How many with talent,started young and groomed well and given a quality specialist education failed to achieve anything remarkable?

Remember the fellas from all the talent shows?

Remember all the one hit wonders?

Remember all those who at one point seemed to wow alot of people with their skills or talents?

How many gave up and took the easy route after a couple of years?

How many just became skeptics and went straight for money instead?

The process of fighting for success changes us.

In the end the most valuable thing is the person we become after all the struggling and pushing ourselves well beyond our comfort zones.

I love change,i love what i’ve become and i’m sure you’ll be too.

We live for the highs and lows.

If you never give up the universe will recognise that infectious energy and show you the signs you need.

Life is fair in that sense.

I struggled 4 years without much progress and i got my signs this year and things are going up in leaps and bounds.

It’ll happen for you too as long as you never give up,4 years,8 years whatever thats all just a period of time.Besides if we don’t do all this what else do we do anyway?

Work 9 to 5

Start a crappy investment portfolio based on everyone else’s advice

Join in the constant skepticism of this world

Have a few brats who mess up other people’s lives

Watch Tv

Eat fancy foods and wear fancy clothes

keep up with trends and every new internet lingo

Drink and smoke and try to ”relax” that way

Struggle to pay off a house and car.

Or we could be happy struggling for personal statisfaction in our work.

The suffering that most people tend to avoid.

Time never stops

but sometimes i tend to stay in a particular year too long.

Block .

Block.

Block.

and break free from the past.

i never gave up

and now i’m beginning to see the first signs of a breakthrough.

25 reasons why i love you

well its one of those sweet reasons corresponding to months posts again hehe

1.) you recommend me good stuff,books,films,places to see

2.) you encourage me in what i wana pursue

3.) you stand my lame jokes

4.) stood by me through a fucking rough year

5.)cuz you’re not materialistic and dun crave for those fucking expensive but ultimately not satisfying stuff that only soothes the ego temporarily

6.) listen to me rant and i’m sorry about the negative things here and there and talking too much

7.)cuz we share many common interests yet we’re so different

8,) we both love films and its like 10000000 times better that you like the more deeper stuff yet not the artsy snob stuff hehehe

9.) cuz a love of cafes and long chilling sessions aint for normal people

10.) i like your taste in books

11,) i love how you can stand gore and talking about digusting but yet ultimately human stuff

12.) mika tan hahahahahahaahah

13.) can’t wait to see you tommorow lah!

14.) time and tide waits for no man but thank you for hearing my nonsense eg.how long my poopoo was this morning

15.) for tolerating my bad singing

16.)for making a huge effort to dress very nicely to the detail and put on makeup for me everytime we meet

17.) for buying me macroons although you dont have much cash and its so ex,dont buy alr kay!

18.)i say this again and again but it really means alot alot alot to me,your words of support,without it i dun think i could gone very far on my own

19.) how adorable your way of thinking is :)

20.) cuz u you look very sweet in dresses

21.) for giving me you drawings and i really like the one with the severed hand pointing at the head

22.)i love you alot cuz you’ve shown me that not compromising every little thing results in a great end product and thats a very good philosophy

23.) doesnt tie in with the main title but cafe hopping tmr sounds real good

24.) i’m sorry if it feels like i dun care about you sometimes,i’ll buck up on my attentiveness

25.) lastly,for not minding that on certain months i cant afford store bought gifts

i love you bby and sorry if the posts come very late in between these days but know that i love you alright :)

damn

its fucking hard and the learning curve is god damn steep,anyways,gotta keep fucking going at it

24

It’s probably 9 in the morning now and you’re drinking your grandma’s coffee while reading this, so here goes:

24) Our constant talks about zombie apocalypses especially in supermarkets

23) Mindless grocery shopping where we just wander between alleys of canned food and junk aimlessly.

22) I love that you’re not a blanket/pillow/bolster hogger, must be all the scouts training. Plus because I’m one

21) You letting me have the cheese off your pizza, now that’s true love.

20) Long bus rides

19) For being my muscles from carrying heavy filming equipment to a 12.75 Kg IMac back without a single complaint

18) I know that you will stick through thick and thin with me

17) From selling the zines at a curb by Maxwell road, to drilling holes, to enduring the burning hell in my room while shooting the jerseys. Your presence and support meant so fucking much to me.

16) Briand,Morgan and Banksy. These 3 guys have been huge sources of inspiration for me.

15) For always being the first person to critique my works, I’m always so excited to show you my stuffs

14) All our drawings on the index cards

13) The 4 books that you’ve made, that we shall publish one day and become millionaires, never fail to cheer me up

12) I like that we’ve a healthy amount of conflicts and disagreements, not too much and not too little.

11) Whenever I’m late, you won’t blame me. Instead you’ll say ” I know girls always take a longer time to prepare”

10) How we can play silly improvisation games anytime, anywhere.

9) How you’re such a softie at heart.

8) I’m extremely glad and happy that after so long you’ve made vast improvements.

7) How we’ve seen each other struggling like fuck in whatever we do. There’s a fucking long way to go, but knowing that you’re there keeps me going ahead,

6) How you delivered lunches to me during my internship. I swear seeing you made me feel so much more alive.

5) You’re a man of your words

4) One of the greatest things that I love about you is that given the circumstances that you are in, you could have just resigned to your life and not do shit about it, but instead you choose to fight and rise against your odds. Plus I love that you’re really independent.

3) A certain pink rabbit, 3 baby carrots and Mr carrot.

2) Till now, it still amazes me how we are so different, yet the differences makes things better,

1) I feel extremely fortunate to have met somebody who shares the same ideals about life especially towards our goals and dreams. Somebody who believe in sticking to what we love doing no matter what, despite the voices of negativity.

Thank you so fucking much for everything. We’ve both changed and grown so much within there 2 years. Got stuck in ruts, got so fucking lost, got depressed, but all these only made us even more sure about what we want to do. This is going to sound so fucking cheesy, but whenever you are around I don’t feel that lost, I don’t feel that scared. Your presence is like a guiding light, whenever things feel a little hopeless for me. You’re such a huge source of strength and support to me.

Fuck I just made you sound like Jesus in the last few sentences.

I love you.

P.S I just downloaded everything from OASIS and fuck my mind has been fucking blown. I dont understand why Noel Gallagher inspires me so much, I swear I felt so much better after watching interviews of him. I’m soo fucking excited to show you their stuffs later.

YQ

Leaving it all

Months of being alone and struggling by myself and i thought when i’m back up again friends will be the first people to turn to.Turns out it wasn’t

1.) we don’t share the same ideologies about money,financial concepts,personal success,satisfaction from personal work etc

I don’t know how to tell you people but go read up on the time for money trap and as a parting line there is no job security in the world,no job is ever secure and in this day and age being a struggling artist is less riskier than trying to hold a job forever(unless your aim in life is to be the most obedient dog who follows orders 100percent) I’ll have a temp job but thats only to put food on the plate.The rest of the time i wana create music and idk whether it will be rewarding financially but i can only die in peace if i live without fucking regrets.

2.) I realised that i stopped being a wreck the moment i left all the fellow screw ups altogether.

Met 2-3 more people the last year and it truly made all the difference and impact on my life.Leaving everyone behind will be the best thing for myself.Another thing i realised is that when friends get successful doing what they do they don’t share anything,not a single fucking thing,i on the other hand talk too much.Its ok i decided only to hang with people who share my ideologies and habits of working hard and effectively and are willing to share in a situation where mutual parties are respectful,learn from each other and grow.

I compromised on myself to fit in with others better,years later i’m tired and i won’t do it ever again.
I’m kinda gay,maybe in society terms have certain faggot traits and behaviour that the masses agree on shouldn’t be in a guy but i’m proud of myself,proud to be who i want to be and what i’ve become.Proud that i stood my ground on many things and now am gonna stand firm for what i believe in.